London based painterrrr.
Studio, w.i.ps n that ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ 📷 @martin dateagle
WTF!!! Today I am one whole year clean and sober. 365 whole days. its hard to even know where to begin or what to say, and im not sure this is the right platform but whatever, I’m going to celebrate my first birthday with a “proud of myself” post. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ I used to absolutely hate myself, and probably you. but this time last year I decided that I would not loose one more person that I love through my addiction. I’ve ruined a lot of great things, and been a right cunt at times... taking responsibility for these wrong doings and beginning to understanding them through sobriety really does make for loving your self in the end. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ Recovery feels like its only just starting, and I cannot thank my friends and family (YOU know who you are ) enough for your love and support (and in my mums case solidarity ) throughout the past year and going forward- love y’all so much- Its insane. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ Clarity can be challenging but I feel so blessed to have been given another shot at life, one that doesn’t involve SO MUCH ANGER. I can now say with conviction for the first time in my life, that I am proud of myself and most importantly, I like me. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ I wanted to quote my fave section from the big book but its too long and yawn sooo you can just go and read it if you care- p.60-63 ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ Be gentle with yourselves, One day at a fucking time xxxx
Last time I sat on wall I broke my back
But you see, I've got no charm. 📸 by MUM
For the aloof icons.. ”once January 24th people come to realize that the admiration of others can infact be manipulation and that they are infact hooked on it, they will have taken the first positive step towards change. Giving up certain associates and activities may be essential for their transformation back to themselves. When they have reached this stage they will be free to shine once more, but with a true inner light which need not reflect what other people want to see” Meditation: a house with no curtains has nothing to hide
Exciting studio visit today with @dateagleart 💙
Celebrating 27 years of being alive today, and 6 months of sobriety (really & truly being alive ) obviously way more stoked on the latter!!!! 💙
How to wear a suit as a lezza pt.1 What a gorgeous wedding, congrats Mr & Mrs Nicholls
How do I get to heaven from London?
180 x 190cm
Me & a big WIP
60 days sober today and feeling BLESSSEDDD🙃💙
Sad n Bad Acrylic, Plaster and Spray Paint on Canvas 100 x 115cm (39.5 x 45" ) On show now at @lawrencealkingallery
A big one from last year that makes me feel weird now, cause life
I had a lot of fun doing this one “Where are you” Filler, acrylic & spray paint on canvas 173 x 101cm
“And don’t you forget it” 120 x 80cm Cement, filler, acrylic & spray paint on unprimed canvas Ps. I love you mum.
“I miss you” 173 x 98cm Filler, acrylic & spray paint on unprimed canvas.
00000mg ur annNnNnnoying
A lezza in linen.. spot my eyebrows for a 10er.
HAPPY PRIDE MONTH!!! I’m not one to usually bang on about this, but this year I’m feeling particularly fruitful about pride & my sexuality. As a gay women through out the years I’ve often been left feeling uncomfortable in many situations. When two women are showing each other affection, It is NOT your place to stare, comment, wink, point, approach, laugh, shout, photograph, the list goes on. The amount of times I’ve experienced all of the above and more. Yawwwwn. 🌈 Every single time I’ve ever been called “a fucking dyke” I’ve felt proud. 🏳️🌈 June, 1969 🏳️🌈
Back in the belly of the beast...
These thoughts are cruel thoughts..
HBU? ⚖️ ⚔️ “And now, it's all the same to me So be whatever you want to be Go wherever you need to go And when there's nothing left behind Taken whatever you needed to And leave it all into my mind”
Call me Michael Kelso